Hope about my artistic talent..that's a  WHOLE DIFFERENT THING.

Every time I look at my drawings, I feel a sense of almost sadness. I do improve every now and again but on the whole, I don't really have the kind of talent it takes to get hired in the industry I want to work in.

I'm a drop in a sea full of artists that are so much better than me for one reason or another... It kind of makes me want to give up for a little bit.


Also, on a slightly related note, the reason why I fail at getting better at the artistic basics is the same reason why I fail at losing weight, becoming vegetarian or getting my license.

I AM WOEFULLY UNDISCIPLINED ABOUT ANYTHING THAT DOES NOT DIRECTLY THREATEN MY EXISTENCE, RIGHT NOW.

Until I fix that fundamental problem, the other things won't line up.

I have to think for a bit.